When I was pregnant with our rainbow baby, it was hard for me to purchase anything for him. I wanted to, but the death and stillbirth of our daughter loomed larger in my mind, and I was afraid to bring more baby items into our home that might go unused. But as his due date drew near, my nesting instinct kicked in, and I began to collect items that would help me to navigate the stressful early days of rainbow motherhood.
Because, as scary as it was being pregnant again after a loss, that fear did not instantly disappear when my son was (thankfully!) born alive and healthy. I was — and, five months later, remain — afraid that SIDS might claim his life. However, I also know that basic precautions aside, it is not possible to prevent SIDS. It is, by definition, unable to be predicted or (if you are following safe sleeping guidelines) prevented.
With that in mind, I knew that I needed to find ways to keep myself sane in the early days and weeks of my son’s life. I needed to be able to sleep, and knew that I wouldn’t be able to if I was constantly worrying about SIDS or other potential problems. So I gathered items that would help me and my baby sleep, and prevent me from going out of my mind. These are my top picks for saving your sanity during rainbow parenthood . . . .
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