This is the first song that I listened to after Eve died. It was passed on to me by a friend. At first I could not listen to it -- I didn't want the darkness that the song talks about, the dark that beauty is born out of. But as I began to throw myself on the Lord in my desperation for answers, this song kept coming back to mind.
Now, exactly 10 weeks from the day that I birthed my daughter's body, I am able to say yes -- give me the beautiful things, please. If I have to have the dark, then redeem it, Father. You're the only one who can.
I hurt so much.
Every Sunday I share a song that has particularly soothing or healing to me since my daughter, Eve, was stillborn. I call these kinds of song "sad hope songs," because they are usually melancholy sounding but also full of the beautiful hope that is born out of pain. To pass a song onto me, please leave your recommendation in the comments.